Fineeee. I'll Admit It. I've Been Selfish.
Latley I Just Don't Feel Like I Have Anything Going For Me.
&& The Sins Of Envy & Greed Have Over Taken My Emotions.
You See... All Of My Friends Either Have, Full Time Jobs, Kids, Apartment, Or A Wedding Around The Corner
But Not Me No...
Granted My Fiance Could Blow Any Of There Significant Others Out Of The Water.
I Was Talking To One Friend & I Told Her How I Felt & She Was Like
"WhaddaYaMean!?? Your Lifee Is Going NoWhereeee? You Have A HighSchoolDiplomaaa!!"
WOOOOOOOO. Partttyyy Like It's My Birffffdayyy. Hahha.. Seriouslyyy.
I Want Something To Keep Me Looking Forward.
Something That Will Make Me Be lIke, WOW, There's My Reason For Living!
I Have All These Promises Set Up, FOR EXAMPLE:
IF I KEEP MY PorchSpace Clean.........
Gram Will LET Me & BabyBoyyy Live In the Trailer Next Door.
Thats WONDERFUL, But Why Does The Economy Have To Shit Down My Nose-Holes?
CAN I GET ONE CALL BACK?!?? I'm A Hard Workerrr. I SWEAR. :]
Idkk, its just this self pity is getting to be to much...
sometimes i think that i might as well settle for a mediocre life...
i don't see it changing anytime soon.

 

I Have A Bunch People That Have
Contributed To Who I Am Today.
This Post Is A Tribute To Them
In No Particular Order
Plus I Never Did A SENIOR Memory.
Its Gonna Be A Paragraph For Them... & Then A Song Lyric.


Daniel
You Are So Much More Then Just My Best Friend.
You Litterally Pulled Me Out Of The Scariest Time Of My Life, & Turned
It Into The Best. Everyday Our Bad Past Is Getting Less & Less Easy To See.
I Don't Think That Matters Anymore Though.
I Love You, You're My Everything. Remember That.
"Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive not dead"

Susan
Holy Fricken Turnips.
We Have Been Threw So Much, & I'm Still Here.
I Don't Forsee That Changing Babydolllll.
I Miss Old Times, You Living Up The Road & Everything.
Friggg, We Were Crazy.
Much Love For You Hunn!
"There's always that one person
that will always have your heart
You never see it coming cause
you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me,
it's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby, you will always be my boo"

Cayla
Camp Skelkittt.
OMGoshness, I Can Still Remember It.
Yanno? JayJay & The Bunch.
Remember I Went Into Convulsions
& You Told Me To Fall Asleep Faster. ROFL.
Middle School, High School.
TODAY.
I Can't Wait For The Baby.
ILY CAYLA. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.
"Tonight will change our lives
It's so good to be by your side
But we'll cry
We won't give up the fight
We'll scream loud at the top of our lungs
And they'll think it's just cause we're young
And we'll feel so alive"


Jaime
Oh Man Girl.
Could We Screw Up Our Past Anymore?
HA. Not Much I'll Tell Ya.
But I'm So Proud Of My College Girlll.
I'll Never EVER Forget You.
Thanks For Taking Me In.
Middle School Would Have Been
HELL Without You.
BFF ILY.
"You find out who your friends are
Somebody's gonna drop everything
Run out and crank up their car
Hit the gas, get there fast
Never stop to think 'what's in it for me?' or 'it's way too far'
They just show on up with their big old heart
You find out who your friends are"


Mike
I Should Have Gotten To Know You Better At Leavitt.
Oh Well, I Know You Now.
Thanks For Making YMInc Fun.
Ohh, & Our Trip Is Gonna Be A BLAST
Good Luck With Everything.
"‘Cause I’m a country boy, I’ve got a 4-wheel drive
Climb in my bed, I’ll take you for a ride
Up city streets, down country roads
I can get you where you need to go
’cause I’m a country boy"

Shane
I WIN.
Ya, Thats Right.
Ha.
Your Like A Brother.
I Know We Don't See Each Other All The TIme
But Heyy, I Still Talk To You When I Need It.
& I Know You Do The Same.
We Need To Chill Just A Tad More. Okay?
Thanks For Saving Me.
Aye.
"Well I took a walk around the world to ease my troubled mind
I left my body lying somewhere in the sands of time
But I watched the world float to the dark side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah
I watched the world float to the dark side of the moon
After all I knew it had to be something to do with you
I really don't mind what happens now and then
As long as you'll be my friend at the end"

Matt
HAGLUV
I Know It Looks Like Your Far Down On The List
Thats Not The Case Though.
Honestly, Your's Is Hard To Write So I Was Putting It Off.
Heh. I Don't Even Think Our Friendship Can Be Summed Up.
All I Can Say Is It's Scary How Fast Time Passes.
I Hope You Know What I'm Feeling.
Here's A Song For Old TImes Sakee.
"I met a girl down at the disco.
She said hey, hey, hey yea let’s go.
I could be your baby, you can be my honey
Lets spend time not money.
I mix your milk wit my cocoa puff,
Milky, milky cocoa,
Mix your milk with my cocoa puff, milky, milky riiiiiiight."

Talisa
Wild Ride.
You Don't Even Know.
Online Poetry Brought Us Together.
All The Adviced I Got For You
Is Keep Your Chin Up.
& Live Right
<3
"Sick and Tired of this world
There's no more air
Trippin' over myself
Goin' nowhere
Waiting
Suffocating
No direction
And I took a dive
And on the way down
I saw you
And you saved me
From myself
And I won't forget
The way you loved me
On the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held onto you"


Nick
THANK YOU
I Would Have Never Even Attempted To Survive
That Summer Without You.
Thanks For Haulting The Pain.
Luv Ya Big Bro.
"Drop your feelings at the door
Has anybody here had enough
Walking in on so much more
Gonna make you give up
I wanna see you get up"

Sonya
So I Figured Out Our Friendship.
I've Concluded That We Need To
Basically Piss Each Other Off.
Come To An Understanding.
Then We're Fine.
Yes, Its A Bit Rocky.
Ha. School Was Great Though.
Great Long Online Chats.
Do What Makes You Happy.
"What am I supposed to do
Sit around and wait for you
Well I can't do that
And there's no turning back
I need time to move on
I need love to feel strong
'Cause I've had time to think it through
And maybe I'm too good for you, oh"

Mom
I Really Don't Know.
You Did Incredible Things For Me.
You Supported Me When I Didn't Even
Want To Hang On Myself.
You Always Tried Your Best To Understand.
I Love You.
"She didn't get a check every week like a nine-to fiver
But she's been a waiter, and a cook and a taxi driver
For twenty years, there at home, until the day her girl was grown
Giving all her love to her was her life's ambition
But now her baby's movin' on, and she'll soon be missin' her
But not today, those are tears of joy runnin' down her face"



Dad & Roxanne
People Aren't Gonna Like What I'm About To Write.
& I'm Sorry. It Just Has To Happen.
I Know Life Is A Busy Place, But As A Child
When You Lived In Florida, I Swear I Saw You More
When You Lived There Then I Do Now.
Yeah, I Could Call More Often. But I'm Stubborn.
I Love You Dad. But I Do Need To Say That
In No Way Do I Think Its Okay For You To
Judge Mom For Helping Me Get Special Ed Services
Or Putting Me In A Safe Haven When I Was Being Unsafe.
& I Know That Tires Are Gonna Spin When I Say This.
But I See Lots Of Katie In Me. I Remember You Telling
Me That Katie Was In A Special Reading Room.
I Was When I Was In Elementary School Too.
I Pray That If She Has Some Of The Learning Issues
That I Do, She Gets The Help She Really Needs.
I Love The Time I Do Get To Spend With You Though.
"An' I know he lives a little left of livin' right,
"An he's come close to goin' way to far a few times.
"But I'd trade a thousand prayers if just one prayer would come true:
"Lord, please believe in him, like I believe in you."

Gram & Grampa
Me & Mom Never Would Have Gotten By Without You.
What You Do For Us Is Amazing, And I Look To  Both Of
You As Role Models. I Love What You've Done With
With Your Life In General.
"Well grandaddy was a hillbilly scholar,
blue collar of a man...
He came from the school of
"you don't need nothin' if you can't make it with your own two hands"
He was backwoods, backwards, used words like:
no sir, yes ma'am, by god, I'll be darned, hell yeah I'm American..
and all the years he walked this earth
I swear all he did was work.
He said the devil dreams on an idle horse
so you listen to me squirt.
Now Granny said sonny
stick to your gun if you believe in something
no matter what
cause it's better to be hated for who you are
Than loved for who you're not."

Grampa & Jackie
Thanks For The Summer Job
& The Trip To New York.
Fun Fun Fun.
I Am Glad You Both Are Doing Good.
LOVE YOU BOTH TONS.
"Grandmothers & Grandfathers are Just
Antique Little Boys & Girls"


Nana & Joe
Heyy. Everytime I Hear From You
It Brightens My Day. But I Can't Help
But Feel that There Is More Then Just Land
Seperating Us. You Told Me Not To Rush Into
Marriage, But You Two Didn't Even Let Me Know
Until i Got A Letter In The Mail With Nana's Last Name
changed. I love you so much. thanks for giving me so much.
"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine."

LAST & LEAST


Nate
I Never Really Got To Say Goodbye.
THISISIT.
Thanks For "Strengthing" Me.
WOO.
Thanks For Putting Me Threw Hell.
You'll Never Understand The Affects
Of What You Did To Me.
HAAAA. I Guess Your Life Can't Crash
Down Anymore Can It?
Karma's A Bitch.
GOOD RIDDENCE.
"When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
Now wheres you picket fence love
And wheres that shiny car,
And did it ever get you far
You've never seem so tense love
I've never seen you fall so hard,
Do you know where you are
And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying"